Nights Are Harder These Days
Written by David Duchovny, Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

Lost a good friend the other day
Like a fool, I was blind to the signs
Drank right past what he had to say
I couldn’t read between the lines
The last night I saw him, he pulled me close
Laughed as he hugged me goodbye
He said “the mornings, my friend, yeah they’re okay
But the nights are harder these days”

Who will come to your dreams tonight?
Some old flame you didn’t treat quite right
Like a ghost, she sits upon your bed
Familiar ringing in your head, and she says
“You got some pipers you got to pay, love
So your nights are harder these days”
Yeah the nights are harder these days

Watching the numbers change
The minutes fading away, I can’t remember the feeling
When my chest wasn’t crushed by the weight
Yeah the nights are harder these days

Monday morning dawn’s early light
Trucks sweep up yesterday’s news
They don’t know wrong from right
Just making way for tomorrow’s blues
I lay awake and count the ways
That the nights are harder

Watching the numbers change
The minutes fading away, I can’t remember the feeling
When my chest wasn’t crushed by the weight
Yeah the nights are harder these days
Yeah the nights are harder


David Duchovny – Vocals
Colin Lee – Piano, Backing Vocals
Pat McCusker – Electric Guitar, Backing Vocals
Mitchell Stewart – Bass Guitar, Percussion
Keenan O’Meara – Acoustic Guitar, Backing Vocals
Davis Rowan – Drums, Percussion

Holding Patterns
Written by David Duchovny, Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

Standing where the sunlight bends
Nothing else for miles around
Past where the highway ends
I’m a wedding ring in the lost and found
Where there’s hope there’s grace I hear
Outta money, faith, I’m outta here
Went looking for more meaning
Didn’t realize what I was leaving

Why’s it always come to this?
I forget who I was searching for
Don’t know who I am ‘til I’m missed
Say goodbye you turn around and you’re

Running on a feeling gone
Running on a feeling gone
Running on a feeling,
running on and on
Running ‘til the feeling’s gone

Holding patterns of your hands on skin
Keep my distance to let you in
Caught between heaven and hell
Taking me inside your cells
Trapped between the moon and Saturn
Backed up in this holding pattern

Does it have to end like this?
In my head I’m always out of time
How much more can I resist?
Look around and now I’m

Running on a feeling gone
Running on a feeling gone
Running on a feeling,
running on and on
Running ‘til the feeling’s gone

Running on a feeling
Running on a feeling
Running on a feeling gone


David Duchovny – Vocals
Colin Lee – Synthesizers, Piano, Organ, Wurlitzer, Backing Vocals
Pat McCusker – Electric Guitar, Synthesizers, Backing Vocals
Mitchell Stewart – Bass Guitar, Synthesizers
Keenan O’Meara – Acoustic Guitar
Davis Rowan – Drums, Percussion
Alex Wasily – Trombone
Nick Ellman – Baritone Saxophone, Clarinet
Oskar Stenmark – Cornet

Chapter and Verse
Written by David Duchovny, Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

I feel you like a dream of a hearse
I know you like the angle of the sun
That hangs above me like an ancient curse
That echoes in my ears when the day is done
For what is lost I will rehearse
For I’ve memorized it chapter and verse

I walk the line in the white out time
I sit alone not lonely in the dark
The laws of karma like a nursery rhyme
Every breath I take every move I make leaves a mark
Yeah this is how worse came to worse
And I’ve memorized it chapter and verse

Got no plans but time on my hands
You on my mind and nothing but time
Got no plans and nothing to hide
Time on my hands and you on my mind

Who are you, I never knew
You played so many roles upon my stage
Father, mother, lover, friend
I said I’d stay until the story’s end
(Well, I guess this is the end)
What’s done is done, I can’t reverse
‘Cause you’ve memorized it chapter and verse
But what will save me from my worst
These fragments of chapter and verse

Got no plans but time on my hands
You on my mind and nothing but time
Got no plans and nothing to hide
Time on my hands and you on my mind


David Duchovny – Vocals
Colin Lee – Piano, Wurlitzer, Synthesizers, Vibraphone, Backing Vocals
Pat McCusker – Electric Guitar
Mitchell Stewart – Bass Guitar
Keenan O’Meara – Acoustic Guitar, Percussion
Davis Rowan – Drums, Percussion
Nick Ellman – Clarinet
Maria Kowalski – Violin, Viola
Amy Tcheupdjian – Cello

Everything Is Noise
Written by David Duchovny, Keenan O’Meara, Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

I was breaking through the skyline, now I’m taking all the time that I can
How long, how long?
Now I’m running away from death, I can hear her singing everyday
My love, my love
Look into the fire now, give me something I can feel, something I can understand.
My love, my love
I can hear it in the trenches, I can feel it shake the ground where I stand
My love, my love

Give me what you got, everything is noise now, everything is noise now
My love, my love
Give me what you got, everything is noise now, everything is noise now
My love, my love

Everytime a star fell, every time a light goes out I think
How long, how long?
I know for sure that I loved you
I hope every day that you cared too
My love my love

Give me what you got, everything is noise now, everything is noise now
My love, my love
Give me what you got, everything is noise now, everything is noise now
My love, my love
Give me what you got, everything is noise now, everything is noise now
My love, my love
Give me what you got, everything is noise now, everything is noise now
My love, my love


David Duchovny – Vocals
Colin Lee – Piano, Wurlitzer, Synthesizers, Backing Vocals
Pat McCusker – Electric Guitar
Mitchell Stewart – Bass Guitar, Percussion
Keenan O’Meara – Acoustic Guitar, Electric Guitar, Backing Vocals
Davis Rowan – Drums, Percussion
Maria Kowalski – Violin, Viola
Amy Tcheupdjian – Cello

Stay Until
Written by David Duchovny, Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

I met you in the morning, as the day was dawning
We walked along the river, you began to shiver
You said, then you said
If you break a part of me, then you must take the whole
If you break my heart, then take my soul
Take my soul

Stay until the day turns grey
Stay until the sun has lost its way
Stay until there’s nothing left to say
Stay ‘til the sun fades away

That night as you were leaving
I couldn’t shake the feeling
Of goodbye
You said, then you said
From the darkest side, the holy gold arrives
Its shine comes from the night
From the night

Stay until we turn grey
Stay until we have found our way
Stay until we’ve said all there is to say
Stay ‘til we fade away

Stay until we fade away
Stay until we fade away


David Duchovny – Vocals
Colin Lee – Piano, Wurlitzer, Synthesizers, Organ, Backing Vocals
Pat McCusker – Electric Guitar, Percussion
Mitchell Stewart – Bass Guitar, Baritone Guitar
Keenan O’Meara – Acoustic Guitar
Davis Rowan – Drums, Percussion
Tamsin Wilson – Vocals
Maria Kowalski – Violin, Viola
Amy Tcheupdjian – Cello
Alex Wasily – Trombone
Oskar Stenmark – Flugelhorn

Tessera
Written by David Duchovny, Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

When a familiar face loses meaning and place
And through every lens you can hardly make sense
Of the world you are in

The signs on the road are marked so unclear
So how will I know when you get here, my dear?
This is my fear

Tessera, tessera
Que sera, que sera

I’m taking my time
I’m taking my time

Look in my hands at the pieces and plans
The signs on the wall crumble and fall
She wrote it all

Tessera, tessera
Que sera, que sera

I’m taking my time
I’m taking my time
I’m wasting my time
I’m wasting my time

The space between is my way of being
Lost in the sound
What will be will be, and has always been
That’s the world you’re in now
That’s the world you’re in now

Tessera, tessera
Que sera, que sera

I’m taking my time
I’m taking my time
I’m wasting my time
I’m wasting my time


David Duchovny – Vocals
Colin Lee – Piano, Synthesizers, Backing Vocals
Pat McCusker – Electric Guitar, Acoustic Guitar, Percussion, Backing Vocals
Mitchell Stewart – Bass Guitar
Keenan O’Meara – Acoustic Guitar, Backing Vocals
Davis Rowan – Drums, Percussion
Maria Kowalski – Violin, Viola
Amy Tcheupdjian – Cello
Alex Wasily – Trombone

Layin’ on the Tracks
Written by David Duchovny, Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

This civil war that we’ve been fighting in
Since before the flood
Yeah there’s a part of us that’s always been
At home in the blood
Nobody knows where to find you
Nobody knows you half the time

Have you seen what it’s like
At the razor’s edge?

The part of you that needed love
You had to kill, you had to make it pay
But It keeps slipping through the cracks
You cannot fill this shadow you can’t slay

The crowds will gather in the poison rain
To hear what they want
Scream and cheer for what was once insane
That passes for fun
It’s a killing joke that no one laughs at
A stupid orange man in a cheap red hat

Will you stand with me now
At the river’s edge?

The part of me that turned away
I have to kill, I have to break the chain
Because your suffering, it is my shame
It is my suffering

Layin’ on the tracks
I don’t wanna come back
I don’t wanna come
Layin’ down the tracks
In case I can’t come back
Come back from where I’ve gone


David Duchovny – Vocals
Colin Lee – Piano, Synthesizers, Glockenspiel, Backing Vocals
Pat McCusker – Electric Guitar, Backing Vocals
Mitchell Stewart – Bass Guitar
Keenan O’Meara – Acoustic Guitar, Percussion
Davis Rowan – Drums, Percussion

Playing at the Same Dream
Written by David Duchovny, Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

I think I know this face, I think I know this hand
I think I know this mind of mine that thinks it understands
I wish I knew a place, where gold can stay
When shit went south I could be free to walk away

Playing at the same dream
You be the hero and funny man queen
I’ll be the bad guy and comeback kid
Come back again and do what I did
The only thing you need to know is
Don’t get too attached to the role cause
Nothing here is as it seems
We’re just playing at the same dream

I miss my partner in crime, the way you showed me what’s mine
Miss your hand upon my back and the words out of time
At the very last, we can exchange our masks
Call it hard-won sanity or maybe we’re just free

Playing at the same dream
I’ll be the hero and funny man queen
You be the fall guy and comeback kid
Come back again and do what you did
The only thing that we can’t know is
Where it all goes when it goes ‘cause
Nothing here is as it seems
We’re just playing at the same dream

I think I know this place, I think I know this man
I’ll get to know this heart of mine that always understands


David Duchovny – Vocals
Colin Lee – Piano, Wurlitzer, Percussion, Backing Vocals
Pat McCusker – Electric Guitar, 12-String Acoustic Guitar, Backing Vocals
Mitchell Stewart – Bass Guitar
Keenan O’Meara – Acoustic Guitar
Davis Rowan – Drums, Percussion
Alex Wasily – Trombone
Oskar Stenmark – Flugelhorn

Call Me When You Land
Written by David Duchovny, Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

Let go of your hand so you could walk on your own
Let go the handlebars so you could ride on and on
Watching you glide through that sunlight
Feels like yesterday
Have to reel in the years now so you can find your own way

Took my hands off the wheel so you could drive
Surrender the fears I thought would keep you alive
Watching you walk down that tunnel
I feel a castaway
Have to hold my tears now so you can fly away

“Call you when I land”
Is what you said to me
I’ll be waiting here, baby
Building our castles in the sand
I’ve been missin’ you lately
Call me when you land

As you take the sky today my heart is in your hands
As a father learns a child is the father to the man
Watching you make your own way
I feel the history
Of all the things I missed and couldn’t see
Now I see

“Call you when I land”
Is what you said to me
I’ll be waiting here, baby
Building our castles in the sand
I’ve been missin’ you lately
Call me when you land

Hold my tongue, let you fall
Take your steps away from me
Ah, the mystery
Have to stop myself so you can be, you can be


David Duchovny – Vocals
Colin Lee – Piano, Synthesizers, Glockenspiel, Backing Vocals
Pat McCusker – Electric Guitar, Percussion, Backing Vocals
Mitchell Stewart – Bass Guitar
Keenan O’Meara – Acoustic Guitar
Davis Rowan – Drums, Percussion
Maria Kowalski – Violin, Viola
Amy Tcheupdjian – Cello

Mind of Winter
Written by David Duchovny, Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

As I set sail for parts unknown
There was weather everywhere
And a pretender on the throne
As I looked back, I lost track and could not find
One silver tongued pleaser who could rise to the times

I meant to find out who I’d be
If you hadn’t put the words on me
I’m going where I need to go
I had to grow up and throw away
Your maps and geography

When I come back, if I come back
I swear that I’ll be simpler
When I come back, if I come back
I’ll have a mind of winter
I’ll have a mind of winter

No land in sight and lost at sea
There was blame in the fog
And fingers pointing back at me
I fell to my knees among the birds and the dying bees
And tried to find my tongue to trace the maiden name of god

I draped myself in nature’s wounds
To see if I could hear the tune
I don’t know what I need to know
Just gotta grow up and throw away
Your deadly philosophy

When I come back, if I come back
I swear that I’ll be simpler
When I come back, if I come back
I’ll have a mind of winter
I’ll have a mind of winter
I’ll have a mind of winter


David Duchovny – Vocals
Colin Lee – Wurlitzer, Synthesizers, Organ
Pat McCusker – Electric Guitar, Percussion, Backing Vocals
Mitchell Stewart – Bass Guitar
Keenan O’Meara – Acoustic Guitar, Lap Steel
Davis Rowan – Drums, Percussion
Oskar Stenmark – Trumpet
Alex Wasily – Trombone
Nick Ellman – Baritone Saxophone

Pacific Coast Highway
Written by David Duchovny, Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

Landed in this desert
Met some maidens and magicians
Kings of fade in and fade out and smooth transitions
Welcome to the smoke and mirror show
Baby, you can win if you can go low

But the Sun shines bright on Pacific Coast Highway
And all of the lights are going my way
The Sun sets West on Pacific Coast Road
I look in the rear view and wonder when I’ll get sold

All the lotus eaters
In their fedoras and wife beaters
Those kings of B plots and no contrition
See the vital organs they trade
For all that money, sun, and fame

And the Sun shines bright on Pacific Coast Highway
And all of the lights are going my way
The Sun sets West on Pacific Coast Road
I look in the rear view and wonder when I’ll get old

Time to leave this desert
Leave the maidens and magicians
Leave the kings and the queens to their board positions
The clock no longer runs slow
But you got nowhere else to go

And the Sun shines bright on Pacific Coast Highway
And all of the lights were going my way
Ah, but the Sun sets fast on Pacific Coast Road
I look in the rear view and wonder when I got old


David Duchovny – Vocals
Colin Lee – Piano, Organ, Glockenspiel, Backing Vocals
Pat McCusker – Electric Guitar, Percussion, Backing Vocals
Mitchell Stewart – Bass Guitar
Keenan O’Meara – Acoustic Guitar, Lap Steel
Davis Rowan – Drums, Percussion
Maria Kowalski – Violin

Sea of Tranquility
Written by David Duchovny, Keaton Simons, Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

Sitting here tonight, missing you
Missing time, drinking wine, missing blue
Looking out my window, hieroglyphics on the rug
Wishing on a star and hoping the moon is made of drugs 

Like a man trapped in orbit, mission blown
Nothing left to do, but no way to get back home
He don’t see people, feels his heart is getting tugged
The only one that he can blame is a moon that’s made of drugs

Oh but one day you’ll find me swimming in the sea of tranquility
Yes and one day you’ll find me as high as I can be, as high as a man can be
Yes and one day you’ll look up and I’ll be free, oh free
Yes and one day you’ll find me swimming in the sea

Earth’s lonely sister, ripped from her side
Doomed forever to miss her, no reason why
Looking on from miles away, she prays that there’s enough
Daylight’s coming soon, she hopes the moon is made of drugs

Oh but one day you’ll find me swimming in the sea of tranquility
Yes and one day you’ll find me as high as I can be, as high as a man can be
Oh yeah one day you’ll look up and I’ll be free, oh free
Yes and one day you’ll find me swimming in the sea

Like a dying planet, something’s missing from my side
Like a moon, like a friend, like something from inside
I just keep on wandering deeper in the night
If I keep on making wrong turns then one day I’ll make it right

And then one day you’ll find me swimming in the sea of tranquility
Yes and one day you’ll find me as high as I can be, as high as a man can be
Yes and one day you’ll look up and I’ll be free, oh free
Yes and one day you’ll find me swimming in the sea


David Duchovny – Vocals
Colin Lee – Piano, Synthesizers, Organ, Backing Vocals
Pat McCusker – Electric Guitar, Acoustic Guitar, Backing Vocals
Mitchell Stewart – Bass Guitar, Percussion
Keenan O’Meara – Acoustic Guitar, Vibraphone
Davis Rowan – Drums, Percussion
Maria Kowalski – Violin, Viola
Amy Tcheupdjian – Cello
David Peel – French Horn

Produced by Colin Lee, Pat McCusker and Mitchell Stewart

Horn and String Arrangements by Colin Lee
String Arrangements for “Everything Is Noise” by Keenan O’Meara

Recorded from January 2020 through November 2020 at:
The Outlier Inn, Woodridge, NY
Engineered by Josh Druckman

Birdhouse Studios, Long Island City, NY
Engineered by Mitchell Stewart and Pat McCusker

Mixed by Tucker Martine at Flora Recording & Playback, Portland, OR
Mastered by Greg Calbi and Steve Fallone at Sterling Sound, Edgewater, NJ

Executive Producers: David Duchovny & Brad Davidson

Artwork & Design by Ryan Wilson & Hanna Ostrom

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